Can you picture this?

In my 'mind's eye' I can see this:

It's the perfect weather day: sunny and warm, and just the slightest breeze. 

I'm sitting at a large, round, umbrella covered table... and each of you are there. 

 There is a bouquet of pink & white peonies (a favorite) stationed in the middle.

 I would share with you my Stevia sweetened, mint infused water (fresh mint from my garden. I love to garden, and appreciate my herbs), with crushed ice, of course (another favorite). 

We're talking of family and life, and what we're interested in. 

 I know, I wouldn't notice the pound or two you've gained or lost/gained or lost. Or, If you were at your goal weight or not.  I would be too interested in what you were sharing, and who you really are.

 It makes me smile to imagine that.

Sisters, I've been thinking non-stop (strongly for two years, but for almost 35 years) of the number on the scale (my scale), and the food I should, could, would-or ought to have eaten (mostly, not eaten). 

It's a little crazy making--for me.

In our days of striving to care for ourselves we: shower, lotion up, do our hair/make-up, brush our teeth/floss, shave/wax, move our bodies, etc...you get the idea.

I never obsess about some of those self-care, health promoting tasks.

 But I do obsess about my weight and food I do or will eat.

Right now, that just doesn't feel right.

I have no desire to be bigger, or eat out of control.

 I do desire to feel good in my own skin. 

That includes, losing some weight.

What I really want, is to look at myself, the way I'd look at each of you sitting at that table.

I don't have any answers.

I am  questioning myself.

It's time for a mental shift.

I'll keep you posted.

Blessings to each of you, my round table buddies. 

Heated up the weekend!

I did heat up the weekend
 ....and not in a good way:

• Hot flashes (lots of them-too many to count). I'm looking for a more natural way to manage peri-menopause. If anyone has any experience or suggestions, I would appreciate some input here.
• 'Heated' discussions with my hubby. I was totally hormonal the last (3) days! I haven't felt like that in years. He was probably glad to leave this morning for his business trip.
• Overactive 'hot' appetite. You don't really want details about that-it wasn't my best (72) hours.
• My calm demeanor (heat shield) may have nearly been blasted off. I'm looking towards getting myself cooled down.

So....

I'm off to prepare for work, and hopefully enjoy this beautiful day that is brewing around here. I'm looking for the other Jeri-this newer 'hotter' version has got to go. She's wearing out her welcome!

Best Wishes for a good week, for you and me.

Happy Monday
I hope you enjoyed a good weekend...mine went by so fast.

* I've lost a lb and a few inches this last week.  I don't want to get in the punishing mode of
  I'm not good enough, and I didn't do enough (as I didn't meet my 2 lb goal, whatever!)
I'm celebrating the small stuff-or at least trying to.
* I've been working, gardening, and reading..some of my favorite things to do.
* I made 'cauliflower rice' and used it in a casserole...my husband loved it, and I pulled out my mandoline and made zuchinni noodles...and created some homemade strawberry syrup (sugar free) for a deliciously icy and frothy drink! Yep, we can have little fruit on FT.
Did you see the front cover of "O" magazine (Oprah's magazine)? It's a picture of her with her arm around her younger self. I only thumbed through it, but there was an article where she and others were speaking to their younger selves. I appreciate that type of reflection.
Can you picture this, yourself...myself. We're standing as we are right now with our arms around our younger self. What would you say to her/him?
As for me, my shortened version of that conversation might sound a little like this:

     I know you're worried about the future, but you're capable. Things will work out, they always do somehow. You know those impressions that come to you...listen...you can trust that.

 Don't worry so much about how clean your house is...play more (learn to play), and wear sunscreen!