- Mojo is a magical charm bag used in voodoo, which has transmuted into a slang word for self-confidence, self-esteem or sex appeal.
I'm determined to find ALL of it...starting right now. Not at the next meal, tomorrow, or Monday...right now.
Actually, there is no 'magic' to weight loss/being healthy/looking great in your jeans.
I just got sidetracked...tired...overwhelmed.
(My life isn't any harder or more complicated than anyone else...it's just mine)
In a way, I lost myself. It didn't happen all at once...it never does. (I've done this before)
May I share a few things I'm aware of today...it may take me awhile to really sort this out:
1) I wanted my children to be proud of me. In some way, I thought they might love or approve of me more if I were thinner. When in fact, I really need to love/care/approve of myself with the same intensity that I've always given to them...no matter what they say or do, or how they act.
2) I'm getting bored with my 'diet', and I'm really missing fruit. However, I know how to 'spice' up my food life again.
So in reality, I'm searching for myself.
(P.S....I've gained 7 lbs from my lowest since I started BFC. I'm a little teary, but not deterred)