Within a matter of three weeks, my sweet Aunt, has had her Mother (my grandmother) and her little 3 y/o grand daughter pass away. This little girl had been fighting leukemia for over half of her life.
There are many people who fight hard battles everyday, as we all well know--and have experienced for ourselves. I suppose I am comparing my battles with hers...I don't know if that is helpful?
So I feel conflicted in my need to share my own little issues, but I must if I'm to break the bad habits of the last (7) days.
I've been on a diet disaster (maybe disaster is a strong word, but you get the idea) all week, and I've been losing/gaining the same 3 lbs for many weeks. I'm feeling pretty frustrated with myself (honesty). My family situation continues to weigh on my mind, and I feel sad a lot (more honesty). Everyday I get up, get dressed, work, offer help when I can, but the sadness is always there. I think this is my new norm...so I eat more than I need or things that aren't so good for me. (more truth).
Last night I just wanted to eat a pie (how's that for truth) Not a piece of pie, but the whole thing...I didn't. I did however eat a piece of Costco pizza for lunch. Blah, blah, blah...and all that jazz.
So my plan is to get back to basics and track my food, and exercise...I can do this, right! These are just a few of the things I learn from you my blogging community. Thank you, and it helps to know you're there:
Dawn Get back to basics-and be honest (her truthfulness has given me permission to do the same)
Rosalie: Post/track our meals (She does this everyday-talk about accountability)
Amber: Check labels, and be more aware of my food (check out her food video posted on her blog)
Katie: Try new foods-and kindness matters (I just want to adopt her)
Pattie: Be loving and faithful (It's who she is)
Beth: Modify when needed (She' losing in the midst of a stressful time)
Sherri: Celebrate (I think it's a way of life for her)
Kay: Maintaining (She reminds me Zumba is fun, and I can get to goal weight too)
Diana: We're not locked into BFC or FT...just create a food plan/lifestyle you can live with (She is trying different plans to find the one that will fit her life...good for you Diana)
minichick: Educate ourselves, and be aware of how food effects your body (She is always studying/learning)
Susan: Keep going...don't give up (I want to love Yoga like she does)
Cat: Keep learning and growing (A busy Mom who's going to school, and who's open to new ideas)
PLEASE forgive me if I've missed anyone. I know there are new bloggers, so if you'd like me to follow you- just leave a comment. I know what it's like to be the new kid on the block.
Bless us all!
Jeri what a nice list you made. That must have taken you quite a while.
ReplyDeleteI hope the stress in your life lessens. Don't worry about the pizza - just move forward and keep going.
Were you the one who posted the chocolate peanut butter minute muffin thingy?? If so thanks cause it was AWESOME?? I will post about it tomorrow.
I hope you have a GREAT Day friend :-)
Oh my goodness, you're going through so much! {{{HUGS}}} Just don't throw in the towel altogether and you'll be fine. You'll find your focus again if you really want to, and I know you do.
ReplyDeleteOh Jeri! This was such a wonderful post, and in the midst of your troubles that you took the time out to shout us all out, thank you! I appreciate your kind words so much - every time you send me a message it makes my heart smile! I am so sorry that you are going through such a rough time, but I agree, a slice of Costco Pizza could have been so much worse! :)
ReplyDeleteCome with me, we'll get back to basics and and track the food (and exercise!!!) together! WE CAN DO THIS!
Jeri, you can never measure your troubles next to another's because they are your own. They hurt, cause stress, anxiety, over eating, sadness. It is easy to beat up on ourselves for feeling bad when others have it so much worse, but they are still our own burdens and they take a toll. Whatever you are going through, I hope that being honest and blogging help you a little. Food will only make you feel worse:( That's the sad part of what happens when we stress eat. I personally don't think 1 piece of Costco pizza is that bad? Now if you had their ice cream bar with it:)
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Blessings my friend!
Jeri
ReplyDeleteI wish I could come over and give you a big hug. What I have found in reading your blog is that you have sucha gentle spirit and I can tell you have such a beautiful soul. You are still waters that run deep. I pray that things start to look up for you. Do the best that you can and you will get back on track soon. Its so hard during stressful times. We have all been there. I had sucha great week and these past 2 days have been so challenging for me. I will get back on the horse tomorrow. Thank you for the lovely comment about me being someone who celebrates. I had a time about 18 months ago where I found it very hard to smile and to celebrate. It was probably one of the saddest and most difficult times in my life but I am grateful to God that he led me through that dark time and helped me to find my joy again. I am in a good place now and I am so thankful for my health, my family and for every day that I am given here on earth. When I care for sick patients who are my age and are burdened with numerous medical problems, I say a prayer of thanksgiving to God for all that I have as I could be in their shoes. It is humbling.
How tragic for your aunt to experience such profound loss in such a short period of time. My prayers are with you all.
Love & hugs to you my friend!
Sherri
Jeri, as one who is grieving, I extend my condolences to you and your family. I know how hard it is to lose someone you love and to watch those you love suffer. Your post was beautiful today, and thank you for the nice tribute to all of us. I am struggling this week as well, and I am stress eating....and I don't care. So that is a red flag that mentally I need some TLC. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Another chance to do all the things we didn't get to do today. Another day to try and accomplish what we need to do to make ourselves healthier and more fulfilled. So let's put this day to bed and look towards tomorrow. Blessings to you...and lots of love and big hugs. It's all I can offer, but I hope it helps in some small way.
ReplyDeleteOh Jeri, three years old is way too young! I'm so sorry that your family had to go through that! I just can't bare it when children have to suffer. The girls above are correct that you can't compare your troubles with anyone else's, not really. Our own troubles just hit us personally and we can't deny that. It was OK that you went a little crazy with your foods, but that's over now. Forgive yourself, realize that it was something you needed for what ever reason, and be done with it. Make yourself a big pot of BFC friendly comfort soup (maybe a nice beef vegetable, or sausage and kale) and eat it without guilt.
ReplyDeleteI love your insights on everybody - very spot on and now I'll add what I've learned from you.
Jeri - grace under pressure (while going thru many emotional struggles has shown grace and calm to all of us)
Jeri you are such a sweetheart, thanks for the nice shout outs :) I am so sorry to hear about the loss that your family is experiencing. It's good that you shared with us what is happening so we can support and encourage you. I agree with everyone don't compare what struggles you are going through to everyone else's troubles and struggles. Don't forget to take time for some tlc, maybe a nice bath or a foot rub. Whatever you do know that your friends appreciate you and we are giving you lots of support from all over the country. My love and support is coming from Washington :)
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